Thursday, November 27, 2008

Conservative / Liberal - Extremism is still Extremist

Here we are again with another absurd law that my country has that has negative effects people and their loved ones. I can’t grasp the logic of their illogical minds behind this one.

OK. The news was that, a little girl had an accident and is now paralyzed from her neck down. The girls doctors say if they have a ‘root cell treatment’ she may recover. But they can only find these cells in a sibling and the best place to get them is from a newborn sibling’s birth cord.

Well positive news! Even though mum and dad have been divorced two and a half years, and maybe remarried or not are in a relationship, all the adults involved agree they can have another child together through artificial insemination to have the sibling and share the love and parenting of the child....

But the Md's say NO NO NO !!!! You can’t because you are NOT MARRIED. There is a law that says you can’t have artificial insemination unless you are a married couple in my country... Daaaa ? So all hope for the little girl’s recovery is on hold.

Now I am asking you ?

If mum and dad want, they can jump in bed to have a baby... but they can’t do this in a modern way without getting hurt emotionally.

Maybe they have to get divorced from their new spouses or leave them and re-marry for their daughter’s future ?

What happens to the third party emotionally ? What happens to the girl’s parents ? What happens to the girl ? She has to remain living paralyzed for the rest of her life ?

ALL BECAUSE SOME D......K HEAD decided the law should be the way it is, you have to be married in order to LOVE a child ?

Thank you for not thinking openly before you enact laws created in your conservative little minds.

They say their motives are based on being proper humans as their religion requires. Are these people are going to say ' God bless, we have so conservatively ethical laws ' when there is a little girls future involved ? Do you really think you will go to heaven because of your good work enacting such laws ?

Come to your senses ! We are in the 21st century, human rights lesson 101:

People have the right to have children..... Legislatures should not say jack shit about it.
A couple married or not if they have the love to give the baby they can !
A gay couple, if they have the love to give the baby, they can !
A single woman, if she has the love to give the baby she can ! Or a single man !

You can’t ban people who believe there is hope for this world from having babies to rise and change the future a world YOU EXTREMISTS f...ed up!

Ghost

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Appropriate Parenting Age???

I haven't had the time to write for a while, Quantum works! I think we have found the human enough coder that we were looking for.

But this is not the issue that I wanted to share to day. The thing is this particular topic came up last week on the news and has been behind my thoughts all week. Angered and really bothered me. It’s just more evidence that I live in a f…. ‘ed up country that has a bent system which actually don't help anyone.

OK, the story goes like this:
There is an orphan. A little girl that has been in the foster care system and living with a good family. After two years of love, care and being a family on emotional basis, the system found this little girl a family to adopt her. They removed the girl from the foster parents, with police force, and gave the little girl to another family; severely traumatizing the little girl and the foster mum and dad.

The reason for this mess that the system is leaning on?
-The foster parents were too old to adopt the girl ……. Excuse me !!!!!

The foster parents were in their forties. They were eligible to be foster parents; to love, care for and call the little girl daughter while she called them mum and dad. But they were not eligible to be legal adoptive parents. They were not even given the chance to adopt the girl they cared for for two years. All this because of age !!!!!

The system's logic - There is a certain age difference limit between the kid and the parents. In the long run, they claim, it is damaging to the mental health and development of the child.

OK, this is really f….’ed up! I mean honestly, we are in the 21 st century… if this is the mentality in this country, then ban all artificial treatments to have babies because most of the people who are using artificial insemination are choosing to become parents in their forties.

Tell our prime minister to stop encouraging his followers to have at least three kids.
If having an age difference is damaging to the kid, I am asking you, ‘how does what you have done affect the kid?'

This little girl is orphaned again, this time by the system set up to protect her. Traumatized and abused……Thanks to you, your mentality, and the laws that it created and we have to live by.

Lets look at a woman who cared for this child as a mother, loved her, not abused her in any way and called her her own. I saw her on the news and couldn't bare to look at her or the news footage. She and her husband asking the officials to give their daughter back. She and her husband traumatized and abused ……Thanks to you, your mentality, and the laws that it created and we have to live by.

Who can blame my decent people who decline, when you ask them if they would become foster parents to kids that are in need. You, the system, do not even subsidize their livelihood when they agree to add a mouth to feed and a child to dress to their household overnight.

Adopting them is out of the question cause you might be over forty!

Who can blame these individuals when they decline to be responsible adults for kids who are in need if they are going to be abused like this by the system.

What comes out of this situation is the truth of my country. People who care are not given the chance to care. People who don’t care are allowed to show off to society, or the media, by posing for one or two days of the year.

Don’t create laws that apply to 21 st century; lets stay at the dark ages of a thousand years ago as social mentality. There are so many topics that I can write about this controversy.
When I make a list, I am ashamed to call myself a proud citizen of this country for what it has become.

Hoping for HUMANE change,

Ghost

Thursday, November 13, 2008

MAD - FRUSTRATED - FEEL ABUSED

Moving from one chapter to another in my life has always been difficult, but this one is like having birth-pain constantly for six months.

I am a dreamer, had this thing in my mind to help people.
Found the right people to invest in this, got it to a point that just before coming to life.
It went in a coma !
The Md's don't know jack sh....! about our syndrome.
The ones who claim they do, are basically bull sh.... ters !

Before we started they told me it was easy to do.
Well I wasn't this educated on this kind of human specimen then.
There is this thing about the soft wear world İ just came to realize first off all..


a- They think they are the only smart ones on the planet.
b- They think just because you are not a programmer you must be an idiot.
c- Because of this they try to treat you like one.
d- They are slow, I mean slow!!!!
e- They have an understanding problem, their hearing skills are zero.

Well hello, I am not the idiot of the block... But I am surrounded by them !
Who ? All the above ones that fit the criteria. DSM-P 1

Well this is all about business, I don't expect anyone to do me no huge favors for nothing.
But even at this point it looks like these guys are not even interested about making money !
If they are, with their attitude they are sure to loose a lot of business with my kind.

You know I am looking for an honest, prompt, clear minded programmer to help me in my little situation; I found out through the crash course 'night school of online problems from home' during this six months, that my problem has a solution. I cant seem to come a cross the right person to solve it.

Call this frustrating? Well the frustrating part will be when the financiers come to my door !

Ghost

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

yummies

When I woke up with a kiss and a good morning coffee from husbie.
Always puts a smile on my face.
Had this reletivelly calm feeling. It was a 'I dont know what to wear ' day.
Still that didn't affect calm, went to work it was going to be a short day finished by one thirty.
Today is a cool light rainy day here this part of my world.
I live in a city just like NY, our home looks at the buzy commercial section of the city, which I work at.
So thankfull that I get to only watch that buzy monster from a distance, creating a beautiful view of this magical ancient city after work.


Husbie was home so I decided to drop by our favorite bakery.
Got some mini fruit yummies, came home.
Got him in bed with a book, between puffy covers. Cozy and warm.
Got the news papers and the box full of sinful fruit yummies, with two mugs of coffee fresh brewed columbian coffee.
We became two little pigs and read., didnt talk that much.
We just remained silent and enjoyed the sweets and being in bed reading together.
Thats what I call a blessing.
Sharing your time and a bed with a Scotsman & sweet little things with it.
Ghost

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Thankful Mutt

Hello there,

Well I have been told that being interested in your ancestry is a sign of old age. Bull sh... !

As far as I can remember moi was always interested in my genetic background.


You see I firmly belived that genes dont only transfer diseases, they also transfer much more than that. Like coded behaviours ectr..


Its our data base of our inheretence in life. The new science and addictions, genetics and the brain. Using family history to improve our health, molecular geneology to track your ancestry.

Our DNA contains the uniqe set of instructions to build us. Half of our DNA comes from our parents. A complete analisis of us comes from four types of DNA that is out there. They are all prone to mutations, while it's past down through generations it contains more mutations.

These mutations are our differences among all of us.

But if we track our haplotypes back further, I belive we will be able to come up with the root idea of Adam and Eve, or to some it is Lillith.


Well I am not looking for my ancestry that far back up the road, what I am trying to say is if all this new science is going to help me to identfy who I am, I am certainly willing to have a look at it to understand me, my family and the region I live in better.

Maybe some of you realized that I called my self The Mongrel. Well there is no better word for a mutt as mixed as I am. Lets have a look.

My dad;

Father is Albanian from Shkoder, no mixing in that other than the line goes to Croatia.

My fathers mother side is a bit different, Grandmamas mother is Macedonian, her father is a Caucasion from Ural mountains.

Thats as far as I could take, so up till now we have The Balkans,Ural-Altay mountain region.

My Mum;

Her dad is Irısh, most probably ancestry from Spain....

Her Mum is a Norman fron the island of England...Actually afraid to dig deeper there. All this might end up at very different geographies.

And with mum we have Ireland and the Uk.

Me is geneticly a mixture of The Balkans, Ural-Altay mountain region, Ireland and the Uk.


What do you call that ? I am not going into where I am living or raised, or religion and cultural factors yet... No not at this blog.

So when I look at my genetic past, where does my addiction come from ?

By the way yes I am a recovering addict but mainly I call it I am recovering from life.

There are mental illness at the Balkan side ?

Suicidal, well I am more on the other side. Never choose to give up. I am a fighter that must be the harsh Ural mountains worior spirit maybe.

Stuborn ? Well I know thats the Albanian in me.


I had to go through this crap about being from a single race, called me all soughts of names. Having parents from different nationality was a nightmare of my adolescense. I wasnt one of them I was the enemys daughter of our republic, 25 to 30 years ago. Is it better now ?

Trust me its getting worse on other levels.


But what else did all this beautiful mixture bring me other than I know ?

Well all I can come up with is there is not a prejudece cell in my body towards the human race for what colour, race, nationality, sexual preference, gender they are. I am only allergic to stupidity and narrow mindedness.

And I am thankfull for that.


Thankful for being a mutt not to fall in to the gap of being the one from the single race.


http://learn.genetics.utah.edu/

Please have a look at this link to open your minds.

Ghost

Monday, November 10, 2008

Get Ready!

I don’t even know why I’m starting this.

Since I was ten, I had something to say about life. I had a lot to questions, trying to find a meaning to the meaningless of the humankind.

Their systems, beliefs structures, should’s or shouldn’t’s.

Tried to fit in, tried to understand, tried to accept things that hurt me simply as life.
The only logical explanation I found was Supertramp’s The Logical song.

At that point, in my life I decided to go and search, explore life out there, taste bitter and sweet. To live in the different social and belief structures trying to figure out the truth, my truth.
The only thing I can tell you that some was a painful, but boy what a journey till now.
I was my biggest critic; I ripped my soul open to find what was truly in there.
Where did the mistakes, the wrong in my life truly belong? Had to own mine!

I know, for myself, there was no other way for me to grow to be the person I am today. As off tomorrow, new mistakes, new heartaches. However, at least I found out whom I am, where I belong, and where I want to go in the first 38 years of my life.

The things I will share here are my experiences and opinions.
Let me warn you I love to stir the pot a lot, being the devils advocate, maybe a true anarchist. I use a direct verbiage, mostly gets me in to trouble. On the other hand, people just call me the loony-bin of the block.
All I try to talk is about the truth, not suiting you or them. Don’t expect me to be nice to a wrong, don’t expect me to be diplomatic…

All I am is a human that has a word or two to say about the world and how I feel living in it.
You don’t have to like what I share, but I won’t put a fact out there with out the proof.
Please open your minds and try to view things from different angles.
Experience what İ have been trying to do the past 25 years of my life, by doing so experience the joy and the pain of thinking, understanding feeling and finding the true meaning that comes through your perception.
Your perception, not someone else’s truth, not dogma.
I believe people who can do this; can change the world to be a better place for all life.

Ghost